Confusions of a senior

I was half-naked in class with a cartolina on my back. Literature class presentation. It was fun, really. Sometimes I wonder whether or not my course was really supposed to be ICT. I mean, I like computers and all but sometimes you really can’t stop the doubt from slipping in. This is because, as some of you might be able to assume, I happen to enjoy writing. I am also able to draw better than your average person which makes me believe that I have a natural inclination for the arts. The fact that I never really liked math convinces me that perhaps I wasn’t meant for a highly technical course.

Am I in the wrong direction? Or am I just thinking too much? It’s not that I’m unhappy with my course, I’m just wondering whether or not this is my true calling. I’m a senior college student and I hope to graduate on time. I guess it’s too late to back out now.

Life Lessons

In recent days of lingering inactivity, I’ve been able to contemplate much on the numerous intricacies involving the human psyche and various complications regarding the ways of my own existence. (Say what?) Actually, I’ve just been lounging around and thinking about what I should be doing with my life. What can I say? I’m a senior college student and (hopefully) I’ll be graduating along with many of my batchmates around March of next year. It’s only natural that I’d be thinking about the future. However, it’s somewhat a bittersweet feeling that certain things about my future have been decided for me already.

Why bittersweet? Well, for starters, I will be migrating to the United States since my family has already done so (and in the process has left me alone in this country). I will be leaving behind everything in this rather decadent country that I’ve come to love and appreciate. Yes, I love my family very much and want to be reunited with them but I am leaving everything else behind by doing so.

It reminds me of this one quote sent to me through text, it’s actually quoted from Peanuts.

“Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.”
–Snoopy

But I’ve come to realize a few more things as well in the past weeks. Since a narrative would take too long and would be really boring, I’ll put it up here in bullet for the convenience of the readers. Some may be new, while others are painfully obvious but I feel to emphasize them. So here are some of the life lessons this week!

Life Lesson Number 1: Know your limit. You can only handle so much responsibility before you get buried in mindless tasks and endless paperwork.
Comment: I’m actually resigning from my position as External Vice President from the Bedan Computer Information Society(BCIS) because I have many other things which need more of my time. The last thing I need is another org that demands that I do another set of activities to cram into my senior schedule.

Life Lesson Number 2: Even the nicest and smartest people have the inclination to do something mean and stupid. So always make sure you can stand on your own.
Comment: My best friend suffered a relatively peaceful break-up only to discover that her man developed this attraction for one of his bimbo officemates after only a few days. He was an intelligent, gentle, kind and loving man. But still a man in the end. One with the gall to hurt my best friend. My best friend is a girl, just so you all don’t conclude that my best friend is gay.

Life Lesson Number 3: The key to happiness is to lower your expectations.

Comment: I think this one is overused but it never fails to strike me as true. After all, isn’t it always a pleasant surprise when good things happen while we expect bad results?

Life Lesson Number 4: Expect that you will get wet when you open a soda can that was shaken 3 seconds ago.
Comment: What you do will get you. Sometimes too soon and sometimes gradually so you don’t notice. I was thin. Just so you know, when I mean thin I mean stick thin. However, High School came and introduced the indulgence of cafeteria food. I studied at La Salle Greenhills and some of the food was simply bad for you… and tasted great. I never noticed until I started to care that I developed what some people affectionately call ‘love handles’. Karma is a cruel and sneaky mistress.

Life Lesson Number 5: You might not change the way the world works. But you can change how you work with the world.
Comment: I know it’s overused but it really is true. I have nothing more to add. But honestly, I don’t really think I learned anything else so I’m just typing this to waste your time.

Okay, so I kinda lied about the bullet form, too. But anyway, life has much to teach us. Sometimes, we just think we know everything we need. Either that or sometimes we just keep on forgetting so life makes us learn them again… with much emphasis. I’ll admit that I’ve been guilty of both. It’s time to review constantly so we don’t forget.

Pass It On

I snatched this from Dyei and will spread it around, too.

Comment, and I will:

1 – Tell you why I added you as a friend you (Or added you in my links, whatever, really.)
2 – Associate you with something. A fandom, a song, a rock, a colour, a piece of fruit. SOMETHING.
3 – Tell you something I like about you because you guys ROCK!
4 – Tell you a memory I have of you.
5 – Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 – Ask something I’ve always wanted to know about you. (Or else I’ll just ask a random question. I reserve that right.)
7 – Tell you my favorite user pic(s) of yours.
8 – Tell you that you must spread this disease in your blog.

New Looks

Okay. So things have been pretty busy as of late. Good news is, I finally received my allowance! Although still a pretty small amount, it should last me for a while. From what I heard, the standing of my folks in the US of A is still pretty rough. In any case, it’s still progress.

Now, what did I do exactly after receiving an allowance? Simple. I spent part of it. Bad habit. I know. But I have to say that it was worth it. I watched a movie and generally had a blast!

The movie I watched is rather… different. It’s not Transformers or Fantastic Four or whatever movie you might have in mind. It was an indie film. Moreno. A gay film. However, despite some of my prejudices, it actually turned out to be a good movie. The story had the flow that made sense. Although some of the acting was awkward and some of the shots as well (hey, it’s an indie film) it was good. It actually surprised me. Although I have never seen so much graphic homosexuality in a few hours, my whole life.

You probably want to ask, why did I watch. Either that, or you’re thinking “I don’t care”. I watched it because my best friend was the production manager of the movie and I really wanted to show my support. So when she asked if I was available and asked to accompany her and a friend to watch, I grabbed the chance without considering the consequences of missing out 2 of my classes. Haha! It was worth it though. I had fun. The most fun I had in quite a while.