I look like a woman?

October 26, 2007

Don’t get me wrong. She’s pretty. You’re cute. But it’s either she’s a woman who looks like a man or you’re a man who looks like a woman.

These words spoken without a second thought from my trainer at Convergys threw the class into a laugh trip. We were doing a small exercise to get ourselves more comfortable with English when she commented that I looked like her co-trainer… who was a woman. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t take offense to what she said. It’s just that this is not the first time that I’ve gotten that kind of remark. First occasion was that time at a YFC meeting where a fellow YFC told me I looked like her best friend… who was a girl. Since then, she calls me ‘Ate Sonya’ once in a while just to spite me. I never took it seriously and dismissed it as some sad delusion she probably has. My trainer meant no harm and intended it as a joke. But often times, jokes are half-meant and bear a certain amount of truth to them. So I intend to uncover the truth.

Is it my lack of facial hair? Although I shave, I only do so to prevent looking like a catfish. Yes, when my ‘mustache’ grows, it seems to grow faster at the ends. As far as I know, I have no Chinese ancestors but we’ll leave the mystery of my facial hair for another blog post.

Is it my youthful appearance? I know that I don’t have wrinkles yet but then again, many others my age don’t either.

Maybe that co-trainer just looked like a guy. Some things in this world are a complete mystery to me. I’ll get around to blogging about the mysteries of the universe. But until I find out the truth (aka, meet this co-trainer or at least see her), I will continue to feel conscious about looking like a chick. Perhaps this is a reason why I used to get the ‘gay’ first impression. It’s not very comforting but hey, it’s a step to looking more manly.

…so I don’t look manly?

Re-Writing

October 25, 2007

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything at all. Except for a few short poems, I haven’t really been in to writing for quite some time. Which is probably why despite my current training at a call center, I am making an attempt to compose a rather amateur piece of literature called fanfiction. For those who aren’t aware of this, fanfiction is simply making another form of literature based from something that currently exists that is not of your own original content. An example of this would be making ‘what if’ scenarios for your favorite TV shows and the like.

So what am I writing? Well, you could say that I’m going back to my roots since I’m writing a fanfic about the PS game ‘Harvest Moon: Back to Nature’. It’s a farming game with a bunch of side quests such as having to get married to one of five girls from the village. Apparently, I won’t tell you what the story is about and instead, I will simply refer you to the website that hosts my story: fanfiction.net

What else have I been into these days? Not much, actually. I’ve already begun training at the call center I applied for and I will hopefully pass the training and become a productive agent. This would most likely be eating up a lot of my time since I will not be studying this semester. It’s a bit of a waste, really. But I haven’t much of a choice on the matter since money is something that I have no real control over. At least the money that I’m supposed to receive.

I hope to be able to pay my debts in due time. Then, resume my studies. It sounds so ‘nice’, ne? Pray that I don’t squander my income.

Updates!

October 5, 2007

Life has been terribly busy. Hehe…

  • Final Exams
  • Systems Analysis & Design
  • Job Search
  • Flights
  • New Poem! Windswept Sonata

Hairspray. Musicals weren’t always my kind of thing although I generally enjoyed songs and whatnot. It was in recent weeks that my appreciation for all sorts of musicals was awakened by Nicole(also known as Sorbetera). We watched this seemingly harmless movie based off a musical and movie. Yes, Hairspray(2007) was based from the 2002 musical production and the 1988 comedy film both of the same title. But enough history lessons, was this movie any good? Yes, it was.

Like Nicole, I hadn’t much of a clue on what it was about since all I saw were a couple posters which was enough to garner my interest to actually watch it. So when the opportunity came for us to watch a movie, there was no debate that we were going to watch it since it began screening that day. We both were hoping for a treat and a treat we sure had. It started off with a song that felt warm and fuzzy which set my mood for something hopeful and dreamy. That mood was shattered when I heard The Nicest Kids in Town song for The Corny Collins Show. Come on! Who wouldn’t burst out in laughter with lyrics like these?

Nice white kids
Who like to lead the way
And once a month
We have our “negro day!”

Those lines with such a cheesy smile could only be pulled off by James Marsden to which I give a thumbs up to. Another noteworthy person to mention is none other than the ever so attractive Michelle Pfeiffer. Damn it, it sounds like MILF but for someone who’s 49, she still has the looks that just exude elegance and beauty. This was particularly highlighted by her song The Legend of Miss Baltimore Crabs. There is simply something with her that just lures you. Personally, I think it’s the eyes.

I don’t want to disclose any details of the movie since I’d rather have you watch it instead. So I’ll just make a few more comments!

I refuse to admit it but I have to say that Amanda Bynes was hot. There, I said it. I wasn’t really fond of her but this movie made her look better. Perhaps it was the tan? But whenever she’d look at Seaweed(Elijah Kelley), I swear that you can actually see it in her Christian eyes that she wanted it! And when I mean it, I mean she wanted her chocolate and she wanted it now. If a girl ever looked at me that way(I perpetually wish for this to happen), I would tie her up and make sure she never got away.


Come on! You know she likes it when you tie her up like that!

In closure, I recommend this movie to everyone. Heck, John Travolta is in the movie dressed in wax and dances with Christopher Walken! It has a pretty good cast and it lived up to more than what I had expected the movie to be. It certainly made me want to watch the movie again if I had the chance. It’s a feel-good movie with a not-so-impressive performance from Zac Efron but a pretty darn good one from just about everyone else. So yes, it is something you should watch. What are you still doing here reading? Go out there and watch it!


Ascognati and Sorbetera gives HAIRSPRAY a thumbs up!

Work and Play

August 18, 2007

This shouldn’t be a very long post. Mostly because I don’t really have much time. Anyway, who’d have been able to imagine that making a game would be this hard? I guess I was being too optimistic that making this project work would be relatively easy. My hat off to all the game developers out there who do it for the love and not really the money.

You see, it is my Systems Analysis and Design project this semester to make a functioning turn-based strategy game. Although we mistakenly labeled it as a turn-based RPG, it doesn’t really matter to them. Many times they are mistaken for one another anyway, so there.

I am in charge primarily of the creative aspect of the game while I leave the rest to my less than enthusiastic group mates. Although it may seem easy, my role turns out to be much more challenging than I first guessed. Drawing can be a real bitch and damn it’s pretty frustrating when you don’t get the results you want. I’m just being too confident in my ability to ‘do better’.

In any case, I’ve entered the blur between games and work. Time to sort it out.

Anticipation

August 5, 2007

Have you ever anticipated something only to find yourself disappointed? Then what makes it worse is when that annoying little voice in the back of your head says ‘I told you so’? I’m sure we’ve all had an experience along those lines at least once in our lives. I’ve had my fair share of that as well. I just haven’t learned yet. Yes, because I’m either a dumbass or… well yeah, a dumbass. I have this very bad habit of practically betting my life on something that is supposed to happen. You could say that I tend to have absolute confidence in what I’m anticipating. When it doesn’t happen, I scramble to come out with a half-baked, shameless back-up plan.

 

That is the routine I’ve been living out this past year. It applies to many things, really. School, financial standing, barkada trips and even romance. Anticipating something then it crumbles right in front of you. Yes, I am ranting. the coming paragraphs will contain more so if you’re tired of it already, you may stop reading now.

 

Okay, if you’re still reading, then I thank you for taking time to read. But don’t say I didn’t warn you. This time around, I will be in the topic of something which I don’t often put up on blogs. Well, at least not in quite some time. To some, it’s a dreaded plague; others a wondrous sensation; and to some just another feeling. It’s about love and relationships. I will simply share the fact that I’ve been rather on the low end when it comes to that department.

 

I’m not the ladies man. I do not reel in the babes by the truckloads like some other guys out there. I am the guy that girls laugh with/at but would never really be the guy they’d consider going out with. Maybe the thought would cross their minds once but they would be quick to dismiss the idea at one point or another. I’m not saying I’m the perfect boyfriend kinda guy. I have lots of things to learn, I’ll admit. But I will not rant on about myself anymore. Hell, even I am tired of reading this. I just wonder what does it take to be that kinda guy that would be able to maintain a relationship.

 

I guess I’m just feelin’ a little lonely but there’s no helping it. I can’t really afford to have a ‘special someone’ at this point anyway. At least not now. I wouldn’t be able to maintain it because I’d have to leave the country in about a year. No use in getting into one when you know it’s going to end.

Confusions of a senior

July 27, 2007

I was half-naked in class with a cartolina on my back. Literature class presentation. It was fun, really. Sometimes I wonder whether or not my course was really supposed to be ICT. I mean, I like computers and all but sometimes you really can’t stop the doubt from slipping in. This is because, as some of you might be able to assume, I happen to enjoy writing. I am also able to draw better than your average person which makes me believe that I have a natural inclination for the arts. The fact that I never really liked math convinces me that perhaps I wasn’t meant for a highly technical course.

Am I in the wrong direction? Or am I just thinking too much? It’s not that I’m unhappy with my course, I’m just wondering whether or not this is my true calling. I’m a senior college student and I hope to graduate on time. I guess it’s too late to back out now.

Life Lessons

July 25, 2007

In recent days of lingering inactivity, I’ve been able to contemplate much on the numerous intricacies involving the human psyche and various complications regarding the ways of my own existence. (Say what?) Actually, I’ve just been lounging around and thinking about what I should be doing with my life. What can I say? I’m a senior college student and (hopefully) I’ll be graduating along with many of my batchmates around March of next year. It’s only natural that I’d be thinking about the future. However, it’s somewhat a bittersweet feeling that certain things about my future have been decided for me already.

Why bittersweet? Well, for starters, I will be migrating to the United States since my family has already done so (and in the process has left me alone in this country). I will be leaving behind everything in this rather decadent country that I’ve come to love and appreciate. Yes, I love my family very much and want to be reunited with them but I am leaving everything else behind by doing so.

It reminds me of this one quote sent to me through text, it’s actually quoted from Peanuts.

“Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.”
–Snoopy

But I’ve come to realize a few more things as well in the past weeks. Since a narrative would take too long and would be really boring, I’ll put it up here in bullet for the convenience of the readers. Some may be new, while others are painfully obvious but I feel to emphasize them. So here are some of the life lessons this week!


Life Lesson Number 1: Know your limit. You can only handle so much responsibility before you get buried in mindless tasks and endless paperwork.
Comment: I’m actually resigning from my position as External Vice President from the Bedan Computer Information Society(BCIS) because I have many other things which need more of my time. The last thing I need is another org that demands that I do another set of activities to cram into my senior schedule.


Life Lesson Number 2: Even the nicest and smartest people have the inclination to do something mean and stupid. So always make sure you can stand on your own.
Comment: My best friend suffered a relatively peaceful break-up only to discover that her man developed this attraction for one of his bimbo officemates after only a few days. He was an intelligent, gentle, kind and loving man. But still a man in the end. One with the gall to hurt my best friend. My best friend is a girl, just so you all don’t conclude that my best friend is gay.


Life Lesson Number 3: The key to happiness is to lower your expectations.

Comment: I think this one is overused but it never fails to strike me as true. After all, isn’t it always a pleasant surprise when good things happen while we expect bad results?


Life Lesson Number 4: Expect that you will get wet when you open a soda can that was shaken 3 seconds ago.
Comment: What you do will get you. Sometimes too soon and sometimes gradually so you don’t notice. I was thin. Just so you know, when I mean thin I mean stick thin. However, High School came and introduced the indulgence of cafeteria food. I studied at La Salle Greenhills and some of the food was simply bad for you… and tasted great. I never noticed until I started to care that I developed what some people affectionately call ‘love handles’. Karma is a cruel and sneaky mistress.


Life Lesson Number 5: You might not change the way the world works. But you can change how you work with the world.
Comment: I know it’s overused but it really is true. I have nothing more to add. But honestly, I don’t really think I learned anything else so I’m just typing this to waste your time.

Okay, so I kinda lied about the bullet form, too. But anyway, life has much to teach us. Sometimes, we just think we know everything we need. Either that or sometimes we just keep on forgetting so life makes us learn them again… with much emphasis. I’ll admit that I’ve been guilty of both. It’s time to review constantly so we don’t forget.

Pass It On

July 7, 2007

I snatched this from Dyei and will spread it around, too.

Comment, and I will:

1 – Tell you why I added you as a friend you (Or added you in my links, whatever, really.)
2 – Associate you with something. A fandom, a song, a rock, a colour, a piece of fruit. SOMETHING.
3 – Tell you something I like about you because you guys ROCK!
4 – Tell you a memory I have of you.
5 – Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 – Ask something I’ve always wanted to know about you. (Or else I’ll just ask a random question. I reserve that right.)
7 – Tell you my favorite user pic(s) of yours.
8 – Tell you that you must spread this disease in your blog.

New Looks

July 4, 2007

Okay. So things have been pretty busy as of late. Good news is, I finally received my allowance! Although still a pretty small amount, it should last me for a while. From what I heard, the standing of my folks in the US of A is still pretty rough. In any case, it’s still progress.

Now, what did I do exactly after receiving an allowance? Simple. I spent part of it. Bad habit. I know. But I have to say that it was worth it. I watched a movie and generally had a blast!

The movie I watched is rather… different. It’s not Transformers or Fantastic Four or whatever movie you might have in mind. It was an indie film. Moreno. A gay film. However, despite some of my prejudices, it actually turned out to be a good movie. The story had the flow that made sense. Although some of the acting was awkward and some of the shots as well (hey, it’s an indie film) it was good. It actually surprised me. Although I have never seen so much graphic homosexuality in a few hours, my whole life.

You probably want to ask, why did I watch. Either that, or you’re thinking “I don’t care”. I watched it because my best friend was the production manager of the movie and I really wanted to show my support. So when she asked if I was available and asked to accompany her and a friend to watch, I grabbed the chance without considering the consequences of missing out 2 of my classes. Haha! It was worth it though. I had fun. The most fun I had in quite a while.